Monday, December 8, 2008

white rose

For the snow we never get
for the love never shared
for the friendship i always wanted
If we ever parted i could never
forget the quiet the still the peaceful and serene

tha happy the jubilant the laughter
and the fears

I love you like a tear drop.....
(I never want to shed)(that was crossed out
hmm seems i never finished it

28th August 2000

why so hard

Life
why so hard
so rough so mean
why not smooth so calm and serene

something
I do am doing have done?
what can i do
to make this life go away

Hard hit hard blow
duck down go with the flow
rapids and whirlpools
torrents of rain
what does it take
to get rid of the pain

no love no hope no trust
just tears
the emotions i feel
hurt fear and pain
nothing i can do to make it go
away

2000

confusion

O love of mine
how deep how true
but is this really
love i feel for you

the want the need the power
Love or the love of love?
which is which can you tell
how pure how deep how true
is this love i feel for you

content to know this
love is pure
is this love of love
or love of you

o love of mine
how deep how true
this is really love
but feel I it for you?

1999

Life

Life
what?
Life
How to explain:
Its like a mountain
No-one reaches the top
without falling back down
what happens at the top?
you die.
Is my mountain as big as yours?
No but it might be bigger it might be smaller
there's hidden crevices, sheer cliffs
How will I know?
you wont you just crawl out climb up
carry on reach the top
whats at the top?
happiness.
happiness and death?
yes.
How?
happiness is peace. death is peace.
I don't want to die
I'm sorry
what?
your mountain was small
but...
I'm sorry
you've reached the top
How?
You climbed faster than i did
can i fall down?
You will
How?
The mountain has two sides life and death
Ive climbed life?
yes , now you can fall in death with peace
when? now?
now....goodbye
are you still here ?
Have you gone?
why was your mountain so small
you where too young too beautiful
peaceful
my dear child enjoy yourself in death
as it wasn't possible in life
Its over I will join you soon
I'm old and so very tired goodbye sweet child

about 1996

Haunted House

Creeak
The door shuts.
A mist closes over you
hanging over you
like dark clouds

The atmosphere
imprinted on the house
Fear rakes through you
like a thousand knives
a long suffering moan
like a tired old man
the mist makes faces
Looking...... Pleading

A sorrow
creeps through you
followed by terror
then pain
like ice in your heart
the past is reaching out to you
you're falling into a sorrow
A sorrow for
those past fears, hopelessness
you crumple breathing deeply
then you feel a hopeful glow
It comes over the house
the faces disappear with smiles
A happy sigh follows them



about 1994

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

I Stand Alone Now


There's no telling how
I feel now.
The hurt and anger gone.
Lost on a wave,
of desertion,
You can't help me here.

I stand alone now,
As I have before.
Strong willed, unfeeling,
Heart encassed in steel.
Untouchable.

Feelings have all left me, now
I deal with life alone
There is no joy no sadness
Just sanctuary, peace
gives my life a meaning
So I can stand alone

Keri-Anne Spear(PRE 2002 I THINK)

Sunday, June 8, 2008

Chiamus In Alma 36

 My son, give ear to my WORDS (1)
KEEP THE COMMANDMENTS of God and ye shall PROSPER IN THE LAND (2)
DO AS I HAVE DONE (2)
in REMEMBERING THE CAPTIVITY of our fathers (2);
for they were in BONDAGE (2)
he surely did DELIVER them (2)
TRUST in God (3)
supported in their TRIALS, and TROUBLES, and AFFLICTIONS (3)
shall be lifted up at the LAST DAY (3)
I KNOW this not of myself but of GOD (4)
BORN OF GOD (5)
I sought to destroy the church of God (6-9)
MY LIMBS were paralyzed (10)
Fear of being in the PRESENCE OF GOD (14-15)
PAINS of a damned soul (16)
HARROWED UP BY THE MEMORY OF SINS (17)
I remembered JESUS CHRIST, SON OF GOD (17)
I cried, JESUS, SON OF GOD (18)
HARROWED UP BY THE MEMORY OF SINS no more (19)
Joy as exceeding as was the PAIN (20)
Long to be in the PRESENCE OF GOD (22)
My LIMBS received their strength again (23)
I labored to bring souls to repentance (24)
BORN OF GOD (26)
Therefore MY KNOWLEDGE IS OF GOD (26)
Supported under TRIALS, TROUBLES, and AFFLICTIONS (27)
TRUST in him (27)
He will deliver me (27)
and RAISE ME UP AT THE LAST DAY (28)
As God brought our fathers out of BONDAGE and captivity (28-29)
Retain in REMEMBRANCE THEIR CAPTIVITY (28-29)
KNOW AS I DO KNOW (30)
KEEP THE COMMANDMENTS and ye shall PROSPER IN THE LAND (30)
This is according to his WORD (30).


Discovered by John W. Welch in 1969



Thursday, June 5, 2008

I Miss You

Where are you hiding?
I cant find you.
I run all night and
I just cant find you.

Im being held back,
My eyes are dark,
They're brimming with tears,
You've left me.

In my waking moments i know it.
When i sleep i feel it.
Im broken and alone and
I just cant find you.

You used to hold me,
protect me, now your gone
I miss you

Pre 2002

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

I am Yours and You are Mine


Love has finally found me,
You surround Me.
Joyous, Wonderful, totally insane
Madness, Whirlwind.
Love

Moving so fast but can't slow down,
Our lives together await a beginning,
Arms entwined as our lives soon will be
New and Real, Pure and true,

Can't think why I never noticed
that we were meant for each other,
Now I can't see my life without you.

My head chases my heart but can't keep up
I reach for you and then can't let go,

We will be happiest together
For Now and for Always
I am Yours and You are Mine,
The way we were meant to be
In Love for the eternities.

Early 2002 Keri-Anne (Spear) Connew

Monday, June 2, 2008

A sigh of Bliss

last night as you slept
I lay my head on your chest,
closed my eyes
wrapped your arm around me.

listening to you breath,
the wind howling outside
I wondered how much you loved me?
where we meant to be forever?

hearing my unheard question you rolled over
enveloped me with your arms
warm and safe
i reached up and kissed your chin

snuggling closer
your breath lulling me to sleep
a smile on my face
as a sigh of bliss escapes my lips


this morning as our babies awoke
you lifted your arm
the babies crawled in
between us snuggling close

our arms enveloping them
our fingers entwining
we look at each other and smile
a collective sigh is heard
we snuggle closer

kissing their sleepy heads
we start our morning

May 21 2008 Keri-Anne Connew

My First Poem

Owls

Owls have sharp eyes,
which see very far,
over big plains
Under the stars.
Owls have claws
to capture their prey,
O lovely OWL REMEMBER me
SOME DAY


1991-that means i was 9/10 yrs old so no criticism needed :)

poetic

When i was in my teens i used to wake in the middle of the night and have to write a poem down. my disclaimer is i never said they where amazing but recently i wrote a poem but short of publishing it with Poetry.com i had nothing to do with it so i thought maybe if i can keep one blog going maybe i can keep 2 going. i will probably not update this blog as often as i will try not to add nonsense if you love writing poetry drop me a line and i will get you added as a contributor so you can add your poetry here too!my book where i write my poetry is packed already so i will intersperse my old poetry with new things i write! I hope you enjoy and feel free to be critical if i can improve my poetry i would love too!